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Y & O (Intro)
01:52
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When I was young I had big dreams//
I used to think that I was capable of anything // thought I could make a difference in a world full of ignorance//
just by writing lyrics of what was going on in my brain// dang, what motivates change? what shapes who I am when I feel the same every day//but then when it's finished I come out diminished//
and character traits that once flourished seem to be missing// on mission with no intention of discovering my goal//
on what year, what day, what moment are we old?// is it when culture no longer seems to be a place where we reside//
and we relapse to the past cuz it's a great place to hide?// wide smiles often hold white lies// just brace for life when the stake is raised to its height//if my mind stays sharp as a double edged blade//
I still won't understand these mistakes I've made// I hate when people ask me the reasons why I've changed// you either get better or worse, you don't stay the same//
dang, can you imagine being 22//
looking at the life ahead of you not knowing what to do?// come a long way since the days back in maize// but life's still a haze I'm a long ways from safe//
so when I picture my life I'm thinking outside of the frame,// used to try to stay out of the box, now the box is my fame//
when everything is only done for the hope of the moment// you're no longer young, you're somewhere between restored and broken// and words spoken don't seem to hold as much force
when you've gone off the path and didn't stick to the course// but and the end of it all, this is what I decided to tell//
on the stairway to heaven, hand already gripping the rail //
when I started rapping they said it was destined to fail.....
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Y.O.U.N.G.
03:51
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Yo, they never saw it coming,// it’s stunning, I’m young and I’m hungry// bummy with my money, expenses still overcoming// numbing from the drumming, but I keep on running// Don’t judge me, slighted by the polite//the lights like lice the way I itch for the night// the nights like spice the way it entice my whole life// I ignore all strife like its outside of my sight// fly, like what's trendy isn't really// Everybody tryna bend me, stretching me until I’m flimsy// And I’m barely twenty, got my bottle of Jackson// Presidential credentials, lifeless in my actions// So numb that I succumb to anyone who shows passion,// yet run to the drum of a heart beat that is lackin'// Fact is I stand firm, too lazy to last and go farther// My past piles of ash, yet they ask why I’m a goner.
I’m young// And I’m opinionated
Underestimated//And I’m numb
'Till I’m gone…
Getting all these cold shoulders made me a lone roller// Meanin' I roll alone, wishin' my dreams were more bold//Or I was more old, feeling younger than spring// Meaning I’m freezing, trying to make this green// scream something extremely obscene till I'm seen// I laugh at their lame pass, ashamed of anything// I’ll never be a loser, but refuse to be a winner// Dollar bills for thrills I lose my green like winter// Mental hibernation, I couldn’t be thinner//
I sit in front of monitors and pretend to pull triggers//
Turn off the lights the cold of night won’t give me shivers// In fact it makes my life feel like it's less dimmer// Chuckle is a whimper, cover up my coldness with zippers// The ripper still whispers I deny his existence// I am not gifted and I have no interests//I'm grown, but insist on being an infant.
Yah know what, we’re still the same// young with no shame since 1980// This is me and my, generation Y// Never understand, but never contemplatin’ why//
We are always high cuz we think it makes us wise//
Took the golden era cherub and we threw him from the sky// the angels in the angle, mines from the side of the sty// with this belief or grief or whatever we try to describe.//Sly when we try to disguise our whole lives// Hiding behind this mask and these passionate lies// But we’ve rationalized to what's up to the minute// In minute we won’t get it so we change it just to stay hip-hop// like we made it, stake it, claim it but then stain it// We can fake it till we make it, play it, then start to hate it// I can’t tell if were independent or dependent on envy// Relying on plenty cuz it simply covers how we're empty.
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Don't let the moment pass, don't let the moment go// keep it in your grasp, keep it under your control// I swear as the sand glass drops its grains I feel the pain// but the pain can't maintain it all eventually fades away// like rain turns to puddles, I still struggle with this tunnel vision// living till I crumble, surrounded with these troubles// I hear the rumble when I stumble like a giant when he tumbles// I'll take an axe to this plant even the colossal falls to rubble// feeling my way through life never thought I'd catch a feeling// till I caught you like a thief with my heart that you were stealing// craftily attacking me with the sweetest of all agonies// till apathy is actually replaced by something attracting me to you,// on the edge of every thought that is new// is a feeling that could leave me confused and askew// words hold power that could cower a hero to coward// but love is more than enough to counter we only say it louder
you've been on my mind// I've been searching to find
someone that gets me like you do
put your hand in mine // and we'll lose track of time
just between me and you
I used to say I was afraid but that was just a faze// when I gaze into your face I see the beauty and the brains// that's the figure and the mind more than the image in my sights// scope is sloped with signs that all hope ends then begins again tonight!// what a beautiful morning to look atomically astonishing// abolishing the hollow dreams and trophy's I've been polishing// wallowing in all of these mesmerizing memories// ghosts are the hosts, croaking, "do you remember me?"// I thought I had forgot, apparently not// like the clocks caught with no tick tock and time stops hot//
fought to keep my composure without being blown over/
remaining covert but growing closer to obvious exposure//
all of this to say that you blow all of that away// it all turns to grey, sways, then begins to fade// it's us verses the world but we accept the attack// never fall back we combat and remain intact.
I wasn't present when God said let there be light// but your presence ignited the lights in my eyes// and I realized that creations most potent convulsions// were worth the build up to this exact moment// and if the moment passes and is lost in the past// if it's burnt down to ash and isn't given a chance// then there will always be that image engraved in my mind// of us verses the world with victory in sight!//
and no matter what they can't they can't take that away//
they've been try to stop it since the beginning of days//
ever notice how girl is always rhymed with world?//
like they can never be separate never unfurled,// almost like they part of the trees, sea, and soil// eve being deceived by the serpent curled in its coil// but nothing on earth could ever foil the divine plan// of the gift of love sent down to every women and man.
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Darkness
04:38
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I don't own the world, but the world doesn't own me//
did it's best to suppress but couldn't control me// unless I vent this flesh I'll never rest, could you hold me?// back from the lost tracks that tried to enclose me// I mean how many times do I have to fall?//crawl just to get back up for it all to stall// hopelessness is in the eye's of the defeated//
the same look was in mine when you first greeted// me the world is greedy, says that it needs me// but it just beats me constantly till I'm bleeding// thinking of sinking, tie me to this iron plug// I'll plunge to the depths of regret with no iron lung// iron sharpens iron but my irons tired, my irons blunt// used to stunt with your tongue but the words only stung// feels like I'm stuck, glued to this dark globe// used to spark hope but that's all gone, where'd the heart go?
I guess we're heartless, used to the ice and the hardness//
I guess we lost the thought of where our heart is//
if you put your hand to my chest you won't even feel the warmth of flesh// I'm as cold as death, the fire died now there's nothing left, were just...
this old worlds spinning violently out of control// while my soul sits cold in this vice grips hold// I swear that even the light in my eyes has gone vacant// I can't take it this complacent lament is stone cold as the pavement// said if I'm patient I can make it, but I don't think so// haven't fallen into the abyss yet, I'm on the brink though// I just miss the feeling that I used to get- ah forget it
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fill in the blank but I mean what am I supposed to say?// been trying to fill this blank page like all dang day// and I'm frustrated, bored, lackadaisical// putting some content in this verse would take a miracle// unbearable, terrible as this sterile worlds new generations// I'm staring at this emptiness, giving it my salutations// finding no inspiration within these passive statements//can't even believe I took this time out of my life to say it.
ever feel like the devil is laughing WITH you?//
feeling guilty for the stuff that you DIDN'T do?//
we're stuck in life's patterns with no need for a lantern//
feeling bruised and battered with your soul ripped and tattered//
I feel like Adam ashamed in his revelation of nudity// even though this whole sensation of nudity isn't new to me// he covered his self with foliage to try to cover sin// I feel cloaked by this darkness that I conceal within// hiding from God with a faith that's all but gone// he shouts my name out, but I don't answer his call// in fact I try to hide outside of the range of his eyes// despised as I cry why father, why// but this God is infallible, powerful, and omnipotent// he will prevail and in no tale am I his opponent// feeling my way with brail, stale in what I learned to hope in// he remained supreme and redeemed everything that was broken// deeper than the ocean, wider than the planes//
with love that stretches across all time and space// with darkness etched across every inch of my frame// God took my place in death and through him I was saved, when I was
my heart caught in my throat it's so full of praise, though I'm// I feel so unworthy of this amazing grace since I'm// a sight for sore eye's I've crawled out of the night, no longer...
living in darkness
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The Champion
03:10
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Yeah, blood was spilt from the wrists// Nails split the skin long as nine inch// The body's bent, the skin is ripped
He hangs naked, patches of flesh slit// Blood pools across the ground, the earth is drenched// He cries towards the heavens, in abandonment// What’s the benefit?, the people mock// Deny his existence; claim his reign was false//And then he died, all the people watched// They pierced his side, blood and water was lost// Then undid the ties, lowered him from the cross// Put the obliterated body behind a giant rock//assign some soldiers in front of the boulder// to protect the body from vandals and mourners// But a couple mornings later the stones been rolled away// And behold there’s no body in the grave// Is the man alive? somebody must know// Mary is swearing that she saw a holy ghost// At his sight Peter jumped out of his fishing boat// Thomas doubted until he touched the holes// From where nails were pried from the flesh and bone// To many stories for all of the earthly scrolls//And the witnesses saw what was predicted// God became man and healed all of our afflictions. Listen…
God was born a child// The child became a man
The man became the sacrificial lamb//
but conquered all sin when he rose again//
he's the champion
my God is the champion
Born in a stable’s sty under a starlit night// God’s living word was birthed into life// Held in wonder by the shepherds and men considered wise// But I wonder if the son of God had his mother’s eyes?// No disguise, he's fully God and fully man// Born with a concept that most men can’t comprehend// Sent to mend what was meant to be a masterpiece// Rip the veil that concealed and set all people free// Changed Saul to Paul, so all have a chance to see// and maybe it doesn’t matter what your perspective be// If your new or old you can still break the hold// Set the mold, steady in faith as a metronome// Or maybe in its epitome, this piano beat// The son rose to defeat dark like it does in the east// Spread light across the world and see the darkness flee// And Satan gets crushed at the feet of the God of peace!
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"The Girl..."
03:37
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Said he’s having some problems with women// His head swimmin' with these visions of lost innocence// He needs to start listenin' to himself when he’s convincen him// That this isn’t what he is interested in// Girl with a smile on her face it’s a tease// If she opened her mouth you’d see vampire teeth// Suck you dry with the deceit and the lies//
But you can't take your gaze off the lust in her eyes// …Maybe she never had a dad// Maybe she doesn’t want the respect she deserves to have// either way you're going to take this chance// dance with the devil and she’ll get you out your pants// but don’t give her to much credit//you knew the whole time where this was headed// in fact you pushed it in that direction// never considering you might regret it//
The girl, had me trapped inside her world
The girl had me trapped... trapped
it happened so fast in a daze// couldn’t take your gaze away from her face// felt flashes of heat coming in waves// like you’ve discovered true joy and destroyed all pain// said in no way did you expect that today// trying to stay on this path with no plans to stray// but suddenly that thought passes off like relays// sleepover at your girls house, she doesn’t wear pj’s//…but the pains still felt// Life without love is a living hell//Life full of lust left rust on the nail//he got nailed, you get nailed, man what the hell?// hard to make changes once you stuck in it// personality is a fail, cuz on girls your dependent// and everyone's on the path to do God's plans// till what they claim as love slips out of their hands//
but how do you beat it//when you already feel defeated// when you've seen it, you've pleaded, stuck your neck out and bled// only to get eaten alive as they fed and fed// and I'd be lying if I said the problem wasn't mine// my branch should probably get cut from the vine// at my age my grapes coulda made fine wine// but I'm intertwined in the sty of my mind// I got minimal interest in alcohol// but I'm drunk off of lust I can't control at all// this potent lack of focus with no Adderall// wondering if the love they show on TV is actual// doesn't seem like it, who's lying to who?// I acted like I was perfect, just lying to you// I mean how can you be this old and feel so dumb// watching everything you worked so hard for coming undone// something in me needs to be modified// give a beat to my heart or surely I will die// cuz all I want in life is a wife and a family// and to accept the love from above that seeks me so badly// but the bad in me is climbing, rising' to the summit// I don't want it, but I'm crushing and know that I will plummet// but if I speak my heart will you even listen?// or just hear certain words and then get offended// just burning bridges with all of these flames// the one thing everyone can relate to is pain...man...
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I’m struggling with wondering where I’m supposed to fit// In this splint with a gift on the brink of losing it// You know that feeling that you get, that makes your eyes light up?//That makes you pump your fist, and cry out with love?// Well I don't feel it enough, now hardly ever // Maybe never, if it doesn't get better, then this endeavor// may become such a burden that I’m stagnate// Whenever I find purpose I lose it to my habits// It can forever flip I need it to change for my benefit// I’ve been in it and crippled it, it never made a difference// Tough upper lip forever slips, future looks indefinite//try to stay ahead of it, losing all the time// The first thing they told me is I never should have tried// Well look into my eyes, you never should have lied// You said even if I worked hard I would get fried// Preparing to be consumed I can feel the fire inside rise
Oh, this is how I feel// I'm not changing my mind
I left all those thoughts behind// I going to be fine, I'm going to be fine// oh, this is how I feel// despite all of the fear inside// I left all of those thoughts behind// I’m going to be fine, I'm going be fine.
Likewise, the hope of human kind was lost// The very second that we let me take off// Body counts pilling up we never count the cost// Until the paths of hope and loss, happen to cross// Then we take account of the negative side of stats// Instead of all the boundaries that we have surpassed// Well I have some bad news, I’m never going back// I know what it’s like to be last when I crashed off the tracks// But when we only pay attention to the securities we lack// We’ll never understand the grands we already have// Man basis his wealth on materialistic possessions// But the wealth I have inside is no cause for a recession// no cause for obsession, life is full of lessons// but I just wish it they lessen, can't take this aggression// when I'm stressing, just start reflecting back on my life// because time after time, it was always fine!
Let him speak, do you ever feel like your heart is weak?// it's on the brink of defeat, of losing its beat// and it's hard to think, that the future is so bleak// and you just seek hope, cuz you feel so meek// I still hear it though, it's the distant echo// of dreams held close, that I never let go// of hope that has died and been given new life// because life was not dependent on the failure and strife// but the fight, even though it's like I don't stand a chance// and I'll get thrown back, no matter the stance// my past has shown that there is no adversary to my aspirations// no matter the indications of incineration that I am facing/ with invigoration, I look them in the eye,// this is determination, I will not be denied//intelligent, benevolent, love inside of the design// my time is nigh, I am going to be fine!
and oh, yes this is how I feel// there won't be any changing my mind//I left all of those straggling thoughts behind// I'm going to be fine.
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The Joy
03:53
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The smile on my face may seems outtaplace// life going outtabounds, running outta space// trying to chase days but I'm losing the race// writing raps for people that's attention spans only fade// but I feel fantastic, I'm feeling gold// I'm feeling hungrie, food for the soul// my life was a disaster that I couldn't avoid//it destroyed, until I found...the joy
Producer made him take it down, said he had to pay// Man I hope that happens to me someday// Somehow, some way, gotta get the plays// Gotta lettem know I got something to say//…but it’s the same old same// I’m left drained with a feeling of disdain// Nobody paid attention or even took a minute to look at// So I’m left with remissions of a decision I shoulda took back// Crooked rap, but let's get one thing straightened//They say it pays off being patient// well I’m impatient and it shows so blatant// Feeling so anxious but the joy is so vacant// I’m empty, though it would look like I have plenty// It’s shifting and I couldn’t even claim a penny// But why should I define riches as my worth// When I bought into a treasure never measured by this earth
They say I smoke to much weed// but I don’t even smoke weed// They plead and say please//Like that will convince me// To change from my ways that others endorse// till I’m forced into this counterfeit world that contorts// My vision, like children watching love in divorce// And we grow up hurt thinking maybe love is a curse// Smokeless since birth yet they say they can see the haze// I’ll tell you strait faced that I’ve never blazed// No liar, no lighters, not even fires or flames// I see clearly, not dreary, so don’t fear for me or frame// Cuz I do make you choke like that second hand smoke// You seem surprise that I spoke like you relied on the hope// Of silence, well violence can make peace when there’s war// But silence reminds us there’s always more to hope for// My alliance is with the lion whose force is more than a roar// And I’m reliant on the lion nothing can mean to me more!
Producer made me take it down, said I had to pay// but I just want to discover the wonder of true love someday// Somehow… some way…//Gotta figure this out, some stay, some stray,// But who am I, what mold do I fit,// Where does this all lead to, what path am I in// And then I discovered it, eye’s filled with wonderment// Stunned by the sun erasing the darkness I’m covered in!// Yeah, and they can't control me// They never bought me so they never owned me// Despite how they fight and seek to destroy// I find myself at the peak of this joy// This joy, this joy, so unmistakable// On top of these feelings I thought were unattainable //Unexplainable, impossible to contain// They seek to defame but they can't claim the same, Joy.
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O.L.D.
04:32
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Since I was a preteen// They told me to stop pretending// Start listening// And put some limits up to keep my mind from speeding away,// but I was already gone// I knew where I was, I was already lost// They couldn’t catch up with me// Everlasting path in front of me// Never astray, always where I want to be //Running can be punishing,// Flying then I’m plummeting// Growing older wondering,
Where it is I’ve been wandering// Frustrating to never live out your dreams// So you rely on the feelings that you get when you sleep// It’s obscene, I’ve seen the pristine things of a king// Listening to the music sing, feel the hope that it brings// And I believed that I would never get old but stay young// Icarus with faith to take this chase to the sun.
till I rest in pieces every piece of me is devoted to the dream// but it seems the dreams only flee from me and never set me free// thought that I would never get old but stay young// now I'm grown, still an old lonely dreamer till I'm done//
What does it mean to me, it seems I dream of being free// To be unseen, quietly exiting while they are resting// Testing every blessing letting blessing do the flexing// Then regressing messing with my brain// And pressing into pain// It’s all for my gain they say as I pay by going insane// Then they lay as I pray that the giants are slain// Let the rain put out the fire of the reign of this desire// Till the sires are mired by the rising of the tired's lies// we cannot sit by why would I try to fly if I cannot get high// It seems I hide and abide instead of breaking wide but why?// Now's my opportunity true to me, but who are we//To pick and choose our own destiny?// Expect less of me, I still rise up aggressively,// Like Samson with no eye site, but the pillars are in my reach right?// and if I use my might my sight might be witness to paradise// up late each night with dreams of being in flight!
what does it mean to me, it doesn’t mean anything// I seem to be caught between the thoughts of preemptively// Emptying my entity into the infantry past infinity// If limiting my listening will make things more interesting// Then I stop,
Like green yellow red// Like ideas that I’ve seen grow mellow in my head // Like instead of dread my thoughts got thinner than a thread//And I tread on upon losses more comfortable than my bed// I said if my dreams die, then surely so will I// Then there was a slaughter and a splatter of red wine// bread was broken as token across the table where I dine// and I realized that God's dreams were opposite of mine// This was all from a faith that corroded over time// paralyzed by lies that defied the divine design// realized I couldn't be denied as long as hope was on my side// now on my way back to the path, just a dreamer for life!
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How great the fathers love for us// how vast beyond all measure// that he would send his only son// to make a wretch his treasure//
I was wretched dejected and rejected// upon further inspection I was infected with deception// in the direction I was headed destruction was definite// imbedded I was sentenced to relinquish and never rest in it// pessimist, bound by these chains// that hang from my brain, run through my body in my veins// and every artery is chained, the pain reigns un tamed// never fade from these fangs that pierced through my frame// to the core the winter hordes with sinners swords I still war// but reap no rewards, it's all a metaphor for what's in store// if I don't restore and pour everything out for something more// then I'm empty, bare, vacant, and deplored// but how vast ,must be, this love, to cover me// out wandering he comforts me, never abandons me//
dang, can you imagine being 22//looking at life ahead of you not knowing what to do?//
it's going to be alright// it's all going to be good//
release a rap album, do it if you could// peers will only sneer at what you can and can't do// if I follow my dreams it seems that you should too// but what comes next, where do I head after// who has the answers? what's the next chapter// sometimes I feel trapped here, no way to release// I only see fleets of the life that I really need// no way to escape, trapped inside this place// but all I need is grace and I'll be forever changed// yeah, and what are the chances// he'd take me in his hands just to show me loves vastness// I hope this life lasts and doesn't become a race// when sprinting is the pace victory goes to last place// but I've chased after waste thinking that great was the fate// feeling faint while being faced with the reality of the pain// dang, but how do we triumph// when we can't even put the old us behind us// and it's always there trying to remind us// that are actions are what define us// and though we're nothing in creations grand scope// we've still been given this divine hope
that through are blatant statements of sins enslavement// the ancient became a replacement, just for embracement//
hope I get to resolve fights with my wife// struggle night to night to raise my kids right// cuz that's life, I put the try in triumph//that's why I don't light up, just wait to rise up// despite the struggle my feet will stay firm// fire insides burns so through struggles I learn// till I come to terms with life and its turns// I'll take them as a great opportunity to serve// so this is the conclusion of not knowing what I'm doing// if you took the time to tune in, and shift through the ruins// then all thanks goes to you, my family my friends// the support was all true, from beginning to end// we're all going to grow up some time// tonight I'm staying up late to shift through my mind// cold world I was told, but it couldn't take my soul// so my soul still glows as I grow from young to old.
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Hungrie Wichita, Kansas
NEW WEBSITE: LZRAPS.BANDCAMP.COM
LZ, formerly known as Hungrie, is a musician from Wichita, KS. Recording music since 2008.
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