I don't own the world, but the world doesn't own me//
did it's best to suppress but couldn't control me// unless I vent this flesh I'll never rest, could you hold me?// back from the lost tracks that tried to enclose me// I mean how many times do I have to fall?//crawl just to get back up for it all to stall// hopelessness is in the eye's of the defeated//
the same look was in mine when you first greeted// me the world is greedy, says that it needs me// but it just beats me constantly till I'm bleeding// thinking of sinking, tie me to this iron plug// I'll plunge to the depths of regret with no iron lung// iron sharpens iron but my irons tired, my irons blunt// used to stunt with your tongue but the words only stung// feels like I'm stuck, glued to this dark globe// used to spark hope but that's all gone, where'd the heart go?

I guess we're heartless, used to the ice and the hardness//
I guess we lost the thought of where our heart is//
if you put your hand to my chest you won't even feel the warmth of flesh// I'm as cold as death, the fire died now there's nothing left, were just...

this old worlds spinning violently out of control// while my soul sits cold in this vice grips hold// I swear that even the light in my eyes has gone vacant// I can't take it this complacent lament is stone cold as the pavement// said if I'm patient I can make it, but I don't think so// haven't fallen into the abyss yet, I'm on the brink though// I just miss the feeling that I used to get- ah forget it
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fill in the blank but I mean what am I supposed to say?// been trying to fill this blank page like all dang day// and I'm frustrated, bored, lackadaisical// putting some content in this verse would take a miracle// unbearable, terrible as this sterile worlds new generations// I'm staring at this emptiness, giving it my salutations// finding no inspiration within these passive statements//can't even believe I took this time out of my life to say it.

ever feel like the devil is laughing WITH you?//
feeling guilty for the stuff that you DIDN'T do?//
we're stuck in life's patterns with no need for a lantern//
feeling bruised and battered with your soul ripped and tattered//

I feel like Adam ashamed in his revelation of nudity// even though this whole sensation of nudity isn't new to me// he covered his self with foliage to try to cover sin// I feel cloaked by this darkness that I conceal within// hiding from God with a faith that's all but gone// he shouts my name out, but I don't answer his call// in fact I try to hide outside of the range of his eyes// despised as I cry why father, why// but this God is infallible, powerful, and omnipotent// he will prevail and in no tale am I his opponent// feeling my way with brail, stale in what I learned to hope in// he remained supreme and redeemed everything that was broken// deeper than the ocean, wider than the planes//
with love that stretches across all time and space// with darkness etched across every inch of my frame// God took my place in death and through him I was saved, when I was

my heart caught in my throat it's so full of praise, though I'm// I feel so unworthy of this amazing grace since I'm// a sight for sore eye's I've crawled out of the night, no longer...
living in darkness