Even if things aint like the used to be
I still do me to the best of my ability
Feeling me, I still speak fluently
about how I see the truth to me
it’s just the booth and me
we became best friends
gonna give him a check, microphone test,
I never leave the home like I’m under house arrest
But I still work constantly, never get a rest
Stuck with these tests, I flee the flesh
Like a flesh eating zombie is bighting at my neck
Or a vampire is swooping in to get a peck
If they get to me I’m just a bloody mess
I guess I’m going through some changes
Put that gun to my head I could use a facelift
The old me used to be the fakest
I just want to rap, finally famous
Yeah, call it the big sean playlist
I watch the thrown but don’t expect sean to take it

I have a dark fantasy like Kanye West
In it I become the worst in search of being the best
And that’ll be me unless
I put God in control, let my knees hit the deck
Let my knees get recked
I still jump for my goals, hope my feet connect
Cuz I hope to step away from this ledge
No more life on the edge, I move on instead
Raise my hands in the air, perfect landing
Take your time to stare, while I’m panting
They say they got it on lock, while I’m outstanding
Get it? Out standing
Yeah, but don’t let me in
The airs more fresh out here,
And I rather be fresh then
Sweatin like a pig crowded in the pen
Trying to go HAM but there’s to much fat to trim
And I flee from sin
Like a bloodied man swimming with sharks in the ocean

Why must I go through these changes?
See it like cement and I’m stuck in the pavement
Get walked on like I was shape ups
Had my mind made up
But I never shaped up
No, never had good assets
Don’t know the plan yet but I wont act in rashness
Dust and ashes, seeing hot flashes
This side is the one with the greener grasses
Plus you never need to mow, and I always know
That there’s promise for me no matter where I go
Obedience isn’t the easiest but I’m free in it
They still want to go HAM, but I feast in this
This, is so much more than good news
This is truth while others follow a ruse or a fluke
Since I was a youth
I’ve been caught up doing what I don’t want to do
Brokenness came from my desires
I chose the living water and it put out those fires